Born into November, just past autumn
Almost winter, yet still walking over the crisp
Colors, scarlet and gold, bold carpets
Covering the ground, an earthly promise
To those who know that somewhere, spring
Is waiting in the darkness, echoing
Its music, dancing in flaming daffodils and tulips,
Hoping to arrive just before the heart
Finds itself beating with the dance, the chance
To find amusement in the miracle of a snowflake
The tenderness of the silent night, the grace
Beneath the stars who seem so wise – so alive
The years wore through my innocence
Eventually training me to listen to the spiritual
Words in scriptures, in peace – serenity
Fading beyond the shadows who foretold of faith
Belief in the prayers who I would ever speak,
Pleading with the Father for His mercy, His compassion
The blessings that would forever agree
To soothe away my darkness, my doubt, the dread
That kept me in a hollow place, location of lies, depression
Despair that told me I didn’t have a way, there was pain
Beyond the words, beyond poetry, beyond the heartbeat
Pain that remembered every dishonor and shame,
Every feeling of doubt, the dreams just wouldn’t come out
I was lost somedays – in the ache, hurting
Tears flowing like dew against a petal, sliding
Haphazardly along the lines of my cheek, beckoning
The silence to speak, the memories to believe
The skies to fill up with their stars, glistening like the tears,
Promising to cure all my anguish, destroy my grief
Bring the peace that would assure me that my Father,
The One I had been praying to and saying to…
Listen, hear me – I’m alive here in this darkness
Take away this sorrow and bring me through tomorrow
With your gentle touch, kiss me with your love
When I remember, though – the pain is always reduced
To a nip, only a mention of the darkness, a silhouette
Surrounding my thoughts, stirring my verse, my vision
With heartbreak, dread – feelings that are led my fear
Poignant and weakened by the chains of suspicion,
Lingering in the pessimistic, the murkiness, misty
Clouds passing over the luminous light of a day filled
With kindness, pregnant with laughter, happily ever after
The conclusion to knowing the One who brought me through
His love a breathing thing, a sweetness, a moment
When wonder covered in kindness breeds hope and faith
Bringing to life the miracle of a love that is eternally burning
Away the darkness, surrounding my life in all that is beautiful
With God as the pilot, I am bound to survive this ride we named life